i can see a full stop on my life!!!

i just donno wat to do, im going nutx, im going craxy the world seems to be emding for me and over all that a heavy head and a god knows wat happened respiration. im very much starting to hate a lot of things happening in my life. i walked for exactly 20 min walkiing across my room i donno thinking wat, im sure partially nutx already and also today i tore a Banana in pygama stupped toy i had when i was young. theres a lot of things inside me which i want to get out, its just trying to get out and im trying to keep it in, and when it comes out im sure gonna see the full stop. been caught up inside here was my own mistake no one asked me to be locked in here for all there months. i just want to get to somewhere noone knows me and live there with the strangers. i know this post is not making anysense . this is just a way of me letting off all my anger out, anger fear sadness which have filled my heart all these 2-3 years of my life. i thikn i need a shrink now but then OH MIGHTY GOD UP THERE where can i get one, just say 'let it be' and once again fill my life with happiness, i wished just onething from u, i prayed to you continuously for  28 months asking for the  same thing but oh you didnt give that to me, i didnt say a think because what all you do you do for the good of you servants, god if u dont grant me with atleast a little bit of happiness it wont be long before its time for me to come to you/ 

and plx everyne dont ask me any more questions about it cause i dont wana talk much bout everything and dont get worried either i am perfectly alright just a little getting too over